I stared at the box for very long, thinking what photo/video to share today
i wanted to find a photo w/o words to express "PEACE"
and i found this inside my folder.
It kinda represent peace and quietness
however, it give me a sense of restriction and unable to breathe
as i was locked up in a room and my world is just the world outside the window.
I've been listening to alot of songs recently
fast, slow, old, new, kpop, cpop and jpop.
each and every single of them described my feelings
while some are there to cheers me up.
Perhaps i'll share it here someday in the future
it isnt the right time now.
it's already JULY and it officially my last month in NYP before leaving for IPP
times really flies and they really flies fast!
I missed time when i was in year 1.
having anzel as part of my life everyday just hoping to meet her in sch
signing up camps and goin for sbm club event juz to meet her
even tho up till now, i still dun hv the courage to make friend with her! HAHA.
year 1 really seem to be a carefree life for me
even tho my classmates disliked me but it doesnt affect me at all
and i really wonder why, even up till now i still dun uds! LOL
perhaps my life was filled with other stuffs & that dint bother me a single bit!
such as going & joinin events organized by NYPALS and sbm club!
busy noticing eyecandies including anzel! hahas~
best camp ever that changes my life completely - Leadership Camp 2010!
made so many friends and life in poly is different~~~
there's pros and cons but i was happy back then (:
I wished i could hv made a different in year 2.
in almost 1yr ago, my life changed.
misery strucked and it's been haunting me, till now
it's almost a year and im still afraid that it will always haunt me.
Year 3. HECTIC LIFE. BUSY LIFE.
projects and reports seem nvr ending
everyday, every weekend, i seem to be spending time doing reports & projects
and only sleep at 2am ++ even tho i've to wake up at 5 or 6 nxt day
im losing the balance for every single thing
too focus on studies & neglect my friends
end up gt blamed for "hving too much fun". HAHA
It's my last year already and i dun hope to hv any regret
year 2 was a disaster to me and i've learnt my lesson
year 3 will be better....or at least im striving to be better
but the last few weeks is not....haix.
Wretch has been my best frien for the past few months
or rather it's always my best frien ever since we met
however, im not strong and does not hv the courage to share it
it's my feeling. it's my opinion. it's me
but it's not acceptable by everyone.
and bcuz it's mine, i dont wish or want to explain to anyone
yet, i always seem to be owing reasons to everyone.
I missed my cousin. I missed kaiying.
i'm glad they're back during these period of time
even tho we might be too busy to meet up
but i'll def make time for them becuz it'll be mths before we meet agn!
Mum and sis hv really been good to me, infact they always have!
spending more time with me and talking more to me
going to watch NDP Live on actual day with my sis
and going to watch JUMP with my sis!!!
finally~i've the chance to watch NDP & concerts with my sis~!
was always envy of her friends but nw i've the chance!! HAHAs.
alright, i'm getting way tooooo emotional! HAHas.
HECTIC week ahead.
with NDP briefing & IPP interview on tuesday -.-
with NAPFA on wednesday
with NDP Event on saturday
with MCE presentation on tuesday
with 2 assignments submission on tuesday
with 2 reports submission on friday
hmmm. i'll end here then...
most probably changing my blogskin sooooon~~
white and plain and simple one (:
BYEBYE